Curiosity sometimes really kills the cat

This would be my worst start of a new year ever. It's 010109 and I had a little quarrel with JJ as early as 12am. Then, later today, I was degraded. Twice. Once by JJ and Once by my own brother Ah Noon.

I was degraded by JJ because I was labeled as a pervert when I mentioned that I went searching online because I was curious if the vibrator ring (VB) that was advertised on Adsense Google brings satisfaction towards men. "It's always about satisfying the women but what about the men?" I thought. And that's what made me went searching by Google but there were no result. Today at Guardian, we were shopping as it was a New Year Sale! Therefore we went looking around and we saw the shop selling vb. JJ didn't know what it was and I told him. Later, when we got out of the shop, he mentioned that the vb only brings satisfaction for women. I told him I do not know because I once searched online if it will bring satisfaction for men and I couldn't find any result. And he started giving me the look and saying things that labeled me as a pervert and I felt so insulted and fired up. If JJ was just a friend, it's already a "good-bye" and "not hoping to see you again" but JJ is not just a friend. Doing research and filling-in for my curiosity makes me a pervert. When I asked him "am I really that type of person in your thinking?" and he said "a little". He did apologize for saying wrong things but that still doesn't mean that he did not mean what he said. I thought he's my partner and I'm able to share whatever that comes in mind which can be a useless knowledge that I know or don't with him without being judged or labeled. He asked for forgiveness and asked me not to get angry anymore. I had time to cool off but I still cannot accept that I'm being labeled and judged by him.

Another incident is that I found out my sister had a break-up and I didn't know about it until my other sister told me. When I asked my bro, he denied and then he said "why do you want to know? so that you can tell the whole world about it?" I'm sick and tired of this. This is the second time I'm being accused by my bro and my sister that I cannot keep what should not be said to other people. Plus this is totally against what I do and my ethic in what I do. Confidentiality is the upmost important when it comes to my professionalism. But when my own family who don't know me so well accuse me and say the opposite of what I've been protecting, I'm sad, angry and extremely disappointed. Fine, if they think whatever inside the freaking family is none of my business, I shall not take notice anymore. I will not want to know what happens to my brothers and sisters. I'll only want to know about my dad, my mom, Iwan and William Ng Lai Zhai because they need my care more than my siblings.

So much for my "happy" new year. Thanks for those who wished me. I think I need more people wishing me. Lolz.