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23.12.09

It's 3.50 am and I cannot sleep due to the after effect of drinking coffee at my cousin's place this afternoon. I am starting to feel afraid because this semester, I only get RM3250 and after deduction from the school fees, left RM1700 only. After deducting the room rental, internet service and utilities bills, I am left with RM 5.65 to survive a day. THat's like living a live of hell and not luxurious at all!! I think living with my dad's pocket money previously is much more luxurious. With that, I only have RM39.83 per week to spend on food and stuff. At least I had RM50 and RM10 reload from my dad when I did not get full loan last time. What the heck is this? Miserable!!

Therefore, I'm planing food schedule now which I'm not sure if I can keep on track or not. With my dream of owning an electrical oven from the love of baking, it's really hard. I do have a gas oven at home but the temperature is hard to predict. I baked cream puff last week on the day before my birthday and it was supposed to be 415 degree F for 15 minutes and what happened was my oven bake at 4th mark of the level of the fire and it took 30 minutes long! Imagine if I were to bake some cake, it will be even harder to estimate as different cakes require different temperature. I just couldn't stand it when the cake that I wanted to bake with tough preparation and everything gone to a waste because of poor temperature estimation.

I need a part-time job. If possible, at night and near to Kota Samarahan. RM600 per month is enough for me to at least survive. I tried my luck on being a tuition teacher on a tuition school nearby but I guess it's just not my luck as I couldn't get a transport on June. When I could already work it out, there's no more job for me. Hmm... I hope there's still a spot for Assistant and RM400 of pay is already enough for me to get through one month together with JJ. I forgot to mention, JJ also gets the same amount of loan that I do. Therefore, I could not have possibly ask for money from him again, considering we're both on the same boat. For the Assistant post, I'll try to sms Mr. Lim again and I hope he'll hire me as I really need a job.

I wonder how did the rest of the students survived with the same amount of loan that I got. I know some of my friends asks for extra money from their parents after only 2 months of each semester. One semester takes up approximately 5 months at maximum. I don't come from a well off family like the rest of them and so asking for more money from my dad after I get full loans from the government sounds ridiculous to him. Anyone reading my blog, help me out? If there is just any offer, do contact me. If I think I'll be able to make it for the job, I'll disregard the distance. ^_*