I'm losing It!

I think I'm losing it. But I can't! I just can't!

And so I went to the dentist yesterday when I was supposed to be studying for my final exam. Can't blame the excruciating pain, huh? I guess you wanna know how painful is excruciatingly painful. It feels like the pulp of your tooth is being poked by sharp needles and it's not just one spot, it's all over your left lower jaw.

Yesterday morning, I was wide awake with pain, lots and lots of pain. I wanted to kill myself. I kept telling myself, "please, can somebody just kill me!!" because apparently, panadol active fast doesn't reduce the toothache at all. It's supposed to be analgesic, stopping the pain reactor from being activated.

The dentist that I went for cleaning my teeth had full appointments and the only time they could spare for me was at 5.30pm. I was like ok, cancel my Saturday appointment and put me on 5.30. Then, my dad told me tat he's not free around 5.30pm so he took me to another dentist who is famous among my friends from Kuching High, Lim Mian Mian just next to Borneo Hotel. He is a nice guy. He asked what was wrong and I told him about the pain that comes and go. He asked if it was the gum and I said, not now. So, he knocked my teeth one by one on the left side and until he reached the teeth that I did filling, I was like, "Ooowww" and he said, "there's a filling here. where did you get it done?" and I waited till his hand gets off from my mouth and answered "Polyclinic". He then explained that the cavity was deep into the nerve (pulp) and the filling was as deep as the pulp and he used the word "too deep". I guess that's not supposed to happen and the filling should have been done properly. He said then it got infected and the root now has a pus (abscess). So, he gave me antibiotics and pain killer for 5 days and see how it goes. If it's still the same, I would have to go back again.

Now I'm feeling PAIN! I'm supposed to be studying. I have exam tomorrow and I can't tell JJ about it cos my fon doesn't have any credit left. I have to withstand the pain. The pain killer's wonders is wearing off cos it's already been 4 hours but I can't take it anymore cos it says 3 times a day only. i think i should if i wanna save my ass for exam tomorrow.