How it ended?

In the end, he didn't go for the meeting. I find out about it once I got into the car. According to my friend, he was ok at first but then he suddenly sms her later to tell her that he has got a test on monday which he had to study for.I thought it was more like he was trying to avoid me.

Prasha and all other beautiful ladies

First, we went to the Old Court House. Danny had difficulty trying to look for a parking. We went to the Court House to watch Prasha, Sugan and Vijaya modelling. It was a great scene with all the beautiful sari. I love some of them because they are actually pretty and I wish one day, I can afford to make my own sari with a nice design and wear it during Deepavali and go to Johny's house in Singapore. Hahaha.. We were there til about 6pm like that. Regatta ended but there were still traffic jam because it was after office hour.
We had lotsa fun that night. We went to eat seafood at Top Spot and it all cost us RM123. What a nice number. Oh yea, those who went was Rohene, Daddy, Gary, Wei Yang, Sylvia, Esther, Prasha, Sugan, Jin, Aril and I. Sylvia only join us when we were going to Tao to celebrate Gary's birthday. We ate Chilly Crab, Steamed Fish, Baby Kailan, Lemon Chicken, Black Pepper Chicken and Stingray. It was a great meal!

After that, we went to Tao (a place to have coffee and juices) and celebrated for Gary even though it was Queh's day! ahahah.. we did wished Queh though, so I guess he doesn't mind since he's such a nice guy. *I'm saying good things about him just so that if he ever reads this post, he won't get angry. hahaha* I drank Watermelon+Apple+Carrot+Milk juice. It was not bad but when I tried Jin's Raspberry juice, I wanted that too! hahahah..maybe it's because that I like sour stuff. Now I'm salivating. hahaha..

Gary get's creamy face

Ok, after that we all went back to Allamanda. The next morning, I woke up pretty early feeling bodily tired. I didn't know why and I still don't til now. hehe.. Then, I went to Jin's place and trust me when I say this = JIN'S ROOM HAS GOT SLEEPING AURA!! hahaha.. I felt sleepy after about 5 minutes in her room. Then, I went back to my room and I didn't feel sleepy anymore but I fell asleep after 15 minutes. Lol! Later, I woke up at 12pm and sms Rohene and asked both Jin and Rohene for lunch together. I sms Gary too but he was at CAIS.

Rohene saw HIM walking to Cafe A and I was like, " why did you have to tell me that?". It wasn't her fault anyway. So, we went to Cafe A and I saw him from far but then, I saw him go to queue in the line. The 3 of us went to queue behind him. I wasn't right behind him though. We then went to survey the food but it didn't look appetising. So, we asked whether we could order anything and they said no. We ended up having our lunch at Sakura instead. Then, I sms him telling him that I saw him and asked him whether he would like to befriend me once again, and I didn't receive any reply from him. From then onwards, I guess the answer was NO.

So, my decision is to let him go his way and I'll go mine. Whenever we meet each other and the feeling of awkwardness is there, I'd just leave. I don't wanna make his life hard by trying to avoid this so called "evil ex-gf". I also don't wanna face so much stresses in my life. Maybe losing a friend isn't so bad. Maybe losing a friend who once influenced your life somewhere and set a footstep there isn't such a bad idea. Maybe the friendship is lost, but the footsteps will remain in my memories and that's all that matters to me.

I know that some might have the opinion that I should try to talk to him and maybe when I do it face to face, it might just go well. I don't know about that but there's just something that's holding me back from doing so. The ending might be good or bad and we never know if we never try. But I won't try. Now, I'm talking about ego. =P Yes, I admit that I too have ego. I still have to keep my profile as a lady and not spoil it. I don't wanna go and say,"Hey, I'm sorry about what i did and let's be friend again." Y not you ask? I don't know. I guessed his reply would be like "mm" or just a nod or even worse, walk away. The him that I know is the type that won't go further into a conversation. That's not what I want in a solution.

Plus, if you go and think about what happened deeply, my relationship is still hanging. An ending of a relationship needs an agreement from both side. Even divorce cases need to be signed by both side, what more to say a normal relationship. It's something like a protocol or an ethic, whatever you wanna call it. After he asked me "WHY" and then, he never talk to me nor reply my messages anymore. So, I'm still in a complicated relationship. but why bother when he doesn't, right? =)