A transition period eh~

Just what i need. a time has come when a relationship two person created in the name of love has to be broken. and i guess this would be the time. i started this blog on the day it started and i would never have guessed that i'll end it right here right now.

it happened just last night..only 12 hours ago. after almost 3 months not seeing each other..after all the endurance and patience we have to face, this is the end of it.

oops..but i'm still going to keep on writing this blog and won't end this blog here.. :P

Time will come when I need to study, that's when I'll be leaving Kuching. So will the other person. I guess things won't work out that easily.

I'm wondering how Mrs. Kang (our MUET teacher) was able to hold on for so long. According to her, she met her husband during Form 6 years too. I salute her for being able to maintain her relationship for more than 40++ years. She must have faced a lot of ups and downs in her relationship but still, they are together.

Everytime this time has come, I really feel sorry for myself. Not that I'm sorry because I've made the wrong decision all these while. I feel sorry because I'm "sap pai". Couldn't even maintain my own relationship and it's my second already. How "sap pai" can that be? REALLY sap pai.

Guess I'm just not fit enough to be in a relationship after all. I've played a lot of games about personality with my Zodiac Signs, my Name and my Birth dates.. they all stated the same thing:

YOU ARE BETTER AS A FRIEND
BUT YOU CAN'T BE AS GOOD AS YOU ARE AS A FRIEND IN A RELATIONSHIP

I found some truth in those words. I sometimes think that I treat my friends better than my family members. Fuh!~~

I guess I might just have to stop writing here because I know not of what I'm writing all these while. Confusion.. kakaka.. chaozz first! Adios~~