Wat's on my mind?

Time really flies..it's now Feb 11th, 2006 and I'm still at home online almost all the time. And guess what, I'm still unemployed n unattached with any association now. Well, guess life's like that. As the matter of fact, I'd just like to drop in a few things that I've been feeling these two days.

• First of all, it's about Ping

U know that sometimes, having a sibling who has been close to you but somehow really annoy you when she got back out of living on her own in a Uni campus jz surviving out there with her friends and foes.
She really gets on my nerves whenever she talks to me. Nothing nice comes out from her mouth. Whenever we argue..she threatens to win over an argument like "i'll hit u if u do that" n etc. It's not that I'm scared or anything, I jz didn't wanna fight in front of my parents.
She always use the advantage of my parents presence to start a fight. She knows that I don't like to fight in front of my parents. Fuck her off man! Really pisses me a lot.
Then, when it comes to a normal conversation, she talks like she's on top of the world. Yea, mayb the word "on top of the world" sounds really kesi (high standard) to some of you out there..but what I meant by "on top of the world" is like she's good in everything and no one else could ever beat her out of it. She's so childish sometimes that she even compare who heard the song first.

(Eg. She always said that she's the first person in our family to listen to jazz la..Michael Bluek la, Frank Tantra)

So what the fuck if she had? Other ppl cannot listen to them too ka? Got police catch ka? Dammit!

When it comes to watching movies..oh man!! I can't stand her!! You know why? It's because she actually commented the movies sometimes like "How do they direct like this? can't even compare wif Lord Of The Rings". What did she think? Oscar award winner bor!! and sometimes, "Aiyer..I like the way the English speaks..He's not even cute..jz that he has the look" and she even repeat the same damn phrase more than 3 times while watching the movies. So, I had to repeat something like "Well, he's jz charming" everytime she says tat. Sometimes, she even compare the way they act with big superstars. I'd be like "GOSH!! Wud u jz shut up??!!"

• Ok, the second point here now is that..well..a bit of emotional la..but jz my thoughts though.

It's jz tat I'm meeting him even fewer recently. Not that I expect us to meet everyday la. Jz tat at least once a week ma. But then again, he has his own difficulties ler..no car la..parents la..studies la..exam la..

Hmm~~ well, what to do? I jz hope that before I go for my NS, I'd be able to meet him la. I know tat it's jz mid February but well..I hope I'l be meeting him soon. Kinda miss him a lot recently. It's so damn hard for us to meet.

I'm still wondering how did I survive not meeting my ex-bf for 2 months last time. But too bad, my trust towards him really lessen for each and everyday. I mean my ex-bf. Hehe..that time, I didn't hav enough confidence myself too. Well, it was well........a bit of a sad case la..But,I moved on. Hohoho..well.. hehe.. (gee..I hope Alicia won't read this, later kena tease, I jiak lat)

• Lastly, it's about how boredom really haunts me.

You know, jobless, not educated for the time being really sux. People think it's heaven cos of holiday but i think 2 months of it is more than enough. Hahahah..well, I kinda miss my friends and all but I can't go hang out often. You see, unlike me, they hav a job or some of them have already even started their new Uni life. And another problem is that I don't hav that much of cash to go out too often too.

Watching movie only already costs you like RM9 AND if you're lucky and get out on the correct day, you'd be watching for RM5. Not forgetting the food and drinks you'll get tempted to which will surely costs more than RM5. If I go out with my ex-classmates, really seldom go to kopitiam and have our meals. They often visit places with "class" such as The Colors, Bing and Coffee Bean this kind of places. Or they prefer to eat at Tun Jugah la..Aduh!
The coffee shop lovers are dying out!!! If we have Muslims in the group, we won't be able to go to coffee shop in town anymore cos most of them are non-halal. Again, ADUH!!

Now, really!! Haih! Haha.. I guess that's all for this entry. ehehehe..chaooOOozzZZz!!